In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Brainwave.”
The best idea that I ever had is to complete my degree after I had my baby. This came at a time that I realized that I could not stall it anymore. Due to my work ethics I was professionally at my peak. However, there was this nagging doubt that I have cheated myself by not letting my full potential grow through education.
I used this doubt to fuel my idea of “why not try and complete the incomplete”. I had a diploma and it wasn’t enough. It was very common to have a degree/ masters in my work/ family circle. I wrote down all that could go wrong after taking up the task. Things like, having a baby and studying, would it be possible? What if I don’t follow through the assignments? What if I get bored of the course and drop out? What if I quit my job during the course, how would I pay my fees?!
After perusing all that could go wrong, I wrote down all that could go right. The degree will give me a self-esteem. My daughter would be proud one day that she was the reason for this decision. Professionally, I didn’t have to shy away when asked about my graduation. These were priceless for me. Now the only thing that came in my way is the fees. I searched all over the web for courses which is economical and has subjects that interest me. I found BA in English from Sikkim Manipal University, Fee per semester was Rs.2500-,which included books, examination fees and assignment submission. My joy knew no bounds, as the course had all the subjects that I always was fascinated with.
I joined the course. But I did not appear for my first semester exams, my work life was hectic and I just couldn’t pull myself through to get to write the exam. The ugly head of “so what” creeped up. I just couldn’t stand it anymore. I decided that I would go through with this and I wrote two semester together and cleared with A grade. Once it so happened that my husband asked me to forgo an exam, to attend a family function. I stood my ground and I’m proud that I did. Today I have completed my degree within the stipulated time of 3years with A grade.Using this graduation I applied for Teach for India fellowship and have been accepted. “Fellowship” was a word that I thought was not for people like me. This decision of completing my graduation made me the ranks of people Fellowship is for.
Every decision which makes you forsee the hardship that you could encounter is the best decision that you could take. It is the process which forges your mind into steel.
Vision objectified
October 21, 2015 by Jayshree D
I admire you so much for this, Ladybug. Especially for not giving up your important test just to please your husband. Hope he knows enough not to make such requests to you anymore. Congratulations on your new fellowship. Now you know that whatever you wish is for you!!! http://judydykstrabrown.com/2015/10/20/waking-up/